Hakuna Matata

APRIL . MAY . JUNE .

From the 1st April till now, it has been two months I didn't write anything on my blog even when I have something to say here. I have lots of things to say but I am so lazy to type it out. Sometimes it is better that you keep your feeling inside your heart rather than telling it to the whole world. 

Well, just for you all know, I had a long long weekend holiday, err I mean, a few months holiday ! Almost 10 months of holiday till I continue my degree. It is such a longgg holiday and I think my brain couldn't work anymore longer, not to say my brain cell is dead, they are still alive but they are not that active anymore :p I have never touched any books at all except some novels and magazines. God, I need something to make my brain cells active again ! 

Two weeks ago, I've been feeling very disappointed on some matters, which related to my studies. I applied Education as my first and second choice, I had decided to become a teacher. Yes, I want to become a teacher :) Some people may think that ' Study Stpm until wanna die ady then become a teacher ? ' But, things can change, at anytime. 

At first, I was given the chance to take the MeDsi Test, it actually test whether one have the personality to become a good and dedicated teacher. It's some kind like a personality test, no right or wrong answers. The unit told me that I have to go to UPSI, Tanjung Malim to take the test on the day when I got the announcement. It took me one hour to reach the place. I was happy though I have to travel far. I did the test, and I actually felt that I did quite well. After the test, I have to wait for their announcement for the interview session. I really really hoped that I got into the interview session, at least just let me try once, for the interview session. Sadly, I didn't get any chance for the interview session from all the university which I applied for Education and I'm sooo deadly disappointed. I don't know what's the problem or what's the reason that they couldn't give me an interview. Was it my results? Is it too bad for them? or was it my skin colour? I'm not trying to raise any racial issues, but it makes me really angry at first. Maybe it also a test for myself, a challenge that God wanna give to me. I know that He knows how much I wanted the interview session. I told myself, no matter what happened with my plan that I had in my hand, God's plan is always greater than mine. He is guiding me, He will watch me how I grow up, into a real mature girl working for the society. Even that I really feel lost now, I know if I have myself in God, and God's Word in me - 

everything will be fine.