It's closed , the eyes .

It's everywhere now , the fear .
Let me close my eyes , alone in the dark , looking for some hopes .

The fear is just around me now . The kind of fear when you will get beaten up by someone . Nowhere to run to . Hide in the cupboard ? Stay at outside late ? No . I'm waiting for that moment to come . I just hope it won't happen , of course (: But sometimes we can't predict things right , unless if you're lucky enough . It's like I'm time traveling now . No , I don't want that . I remember the feeling on the old days which is very familiar with how I feel now . I can't do anything I guess ? [: Just look and listen . When I can't do anything , I will just wait for it . Yeah , I'm a kind of person who easily give up . But sometimes I do chase with what I dream of . Chasing after and after , faster and faster . It's not that easy . Chasing a dream is a tough thing , and you will need time , patience , and calm . I got some flashback now . And I can't continue to have it in my mind . Just let me close my eyes now and keep silent . Or just sleep . Forgetting about everything and what other people doing around me now .

미안해 ?

난정말 정말 미안해 . 전 현 규의 메세지를 들었 .

그건 그가 말했다 모든 팬들이 여전히 그들을 지원하고 4 번째 앨범에 대한 기대 덕분에 .
그 때 난 그의 메시지를 듣고, 난 울었다 .
여전히지지하고 우리를 사랑 "과"우리의 네번째 앨범 "을 예측한 단어는"팬들은 날 울었했다 .
난 그들 중 하나가 아니라고 생각하기 때문입니다 .
난 그들을 사랑 해요. 하지만이 2 개월에, 나는 그들에 대해 소식을 찾는 중지합니다 .
아니 그들 중 하나 . 난 그들의 사진이나 아무것도 검색하지어요 .
난 그냥 내 블로그에 또 다른 웹사이트에 집중할 수는 아니지만 그들에 대해서.
정말 자신이 부끄러워 그들의 팬이예요.
공연 후, 나는 그들이 TV 및 방송 출연하는 그, 그들은 완전히 다르다고 느꼈어.
그것은 완전히 다른거야 . 아마 그 때문에, 난 그렇게 느껴 . 난 부끄럽지 이제 기분.
지금은 기분이 좋아 지 3 앨범, 그들의 복귀를 본 후. 하지만 지금은 4 그들이 앨범에만 10 그들 중. Kangin 절대 컴백, Kibum 절대 복귀 또한 한경. 그리고,이게 내가 무서워 실망 약 피곤 . 약속드립니다 . 하지만 지금은 약속을 지키, 그것은 계속해서, 그들의 13를 보호 .

Coming Back .

BONAMANA . 미인아

They're coming back
All of us had waited so long
Finally , they're back . But not with the thirteen of them .

I hope the comeback will be just like the same as this video


看了这个片段，直接 — 哭
我要的是 Only 13
说实话，我接收不到韩庚离开这个事实
我也接受不到只有10个人回来
我不知道这个是一个谎言，还是什么
我真的接收不到

赫在，我终于听到你的声音了
这次不是RAP而是唱歌
这次的 COMEBACK 还是有点期待
因为，圭贤说过的 ;
希望我们我们继续支持他们，继续爱他们
所以，我会的

. ONLY THIRTEEN .

Thanks Mom ♥

2010.05.09

I bet everyone knows what day is today right ?

Mother's Day (:

Usually on this day I will be at hometown to celebrate Mother's Day with my grandma. But they had celebrated it with my grandma and I'm not there with them . Whaaaaat a waste la . Last year we had celebrated Mother's day together with my other relative at hometown . It was a suuuuper great celebration :D We had dinner together , we cooked ourselves and cut cake together . That's one of the best moment I have with my family members .

Well ; talked about Mother's Day
Yesterday my brother and I had cut a cake with my mom , consider as celebrating mother's day la ? HOHO :D It's an ice creaaaam cake and of course , it's taste nice , haha . I wanted to do a card for my mom actually . A mother's day card . But I think doing birthday card is better since her birthday not yet reach .

Just now when I woke up , when I opened my eyes , I realized that my mom had gone out for work . AHHHH , i thought . I missed a chance to wish her Happy Mother's Day . But never mind , I got the chance at night later ((: ngeeeeee . Don't know why . Now I really feel that Family is everything for me . I mean ; Family is always there for us no matter what happened . A relationship in family will never ever end , it always continue . That is what we call Family . The one that help us out , be there for us , and didn't care what we did in the past . Yes , although we did wrong things , friends may not forgiving you , but family , however , they will still forgive you . I got that kind of experience . Last time I used to not hear my parents' advice , and at last , I did wrong & I got the punishment . But yet, my parents still forgiving me & accept what I've done . Not only my parents but also my bro & sis , they're there for me when I need someone . Really , after having that kind of feeling , I realized that Family is everything you need in this world . Friends can be find again , but Family never (:

My mom ;
Had worked a lot to raise us up , to raise the 3 of us . It's not that easy . Yeah , she beaten up us before , slapped us before , and scolded us before , but we know , it's for our own good ((: She did everything for us . She worked from 9.00 am to 10.00 pm , just to earn more money . She stands all day and we as her child yet don't know how to appreciate it . But now , I learned to appreciate her . I learned to appreciate everything she had done for us (:
Last time I always used to think that she love my sister more than loving me
But actually , she loves all of us (: Really . Last week , my mom bought a new bag for me , and also a new pencil box . Seriously , I feel that she care about me a lot . And then she bought some cakes and breads for my breakfast . And then now she let me learn something that I really wanted to learn . She spend half of her salary on me , my tuition fees , school fees and everything . Feel so sorry for her . It's like , I'm a very heavy burden for her . So now , I told myself , not to hurt my mom anymore . Not doing those things that will hurt her feelings , and I will study hard (: I don't want to make her disappointed with me . I don't want to waste her money just like that (:

MOM ;
ILY . WAI . SRH . ♥ TY . XXN . GMW .
Billions of love for you . Love that will never end . Eternal love (:

可以接受这个事实吗？

刚刚我看了几张图片
看了那几张图片过后，心里突然有一种害怕的感觉
换是以前的话，我不可能会有这种感觉的
以前看到他们的图片的时候，我会很激动，很想知道更多
可是现在，已经没有那种感觉了
我不知道为什么会这样。就是，我感觉到很多东西都变了
为什么会这样啊？
是我变了，还是他们变了？我不清楚
我只知道，我对他们的感觉，期待好象是越来越少了
之前我真的很想他们来马来西亚，我因该很开心才对啊
可是不知道为什么，他们会韩国之后
我已经没有这么喜欢他们了。我觉得他们好像不怎么喜欢来马来西亚
我很记得赫宰的表情。他没有笑的时候真的很可怕，一点都不想我喜欢的赫宰
就是。。很陌生的感觉，完全不像他。
想到这些我就想哭了。说真的，没有人可以弄我哭，就除了他们，除了赫宰
那天看演唱会的时候，听到始源SOLO的时候我就开始哭了
始源的SOLO真的很棒，真的令人很感动，因为当他唱 Who I am 的时候，他让我想起了韩庚，强仁，和基范.我那时头脑里就只有他们三个。我在想，在这个时候他们是因该13只在一起的。还有，我的愿望是看他们13只的演唱会。我要的是他们13在一起。过后SJ-M唱 Blue Tomorrow的时候我也哭了。中间那一排是韩庚站的位置，可是当他们唱的时候，中间是空的。我真的真的很想念韩庚。那个位置是属于韩庚的。在唱TWINS和DON'T DON的时候我就想起了基范。我很想念他的RAP.当他们在唱SORRY SORRY -ANSWER 的时候，那个VCR让我哭的更惨。因为很多都是强仁的部分，我看到强仁在笑的时候我就忍不住了，我很想看他，我很想念他，很想念她的笑容！我真的不明白为什么他们要这样对他。当他笑的那一刻，全部都喊得很大声，相信全部粉丝们都和我一样很想念他，很希望它也能站在舞台上表演。

四辑要出了，我已经不期待了，因为我知道这次COMEBACK的已经不会是13只了
可是我还是相信他们的心，13只的心还是在一起的
我们是EverLastingFriends不是吗？信任就是全部 (:
Oh oh Only For you , LHJ .

Real talented !

Early morning I woke up , I received a call from Bro . Argggghh , it's about his cafe world again .
So I on my comp and started to log in his facebook . Well , he already reached level 33 , he play game so darn seriously . Serious than how I study :D haha . Well well, after serve all the food in his cafe . I log to youtubeeeee and search for some nice songs . And you know what ? I found this two person , Jason Yang and Clara (: Both of them are very great , HAHAHA -.- Siao liao . Okay okay , now let the music cover the silence ! ENJOY (:

Nothing on you & Airplanes . Check it out (:


Hey Soul Sister (:

Photoshoooooot ! :D

LALALALALA

We had our class photoshoot session today ! AHA ! 5 Bina had the best candid ever :DD We hold up balloons and banners ' 5 Bina ' , nice right ? This year will be the last year of our school . In other word , I'll be facing SPM ! OGOD, no pleaseeeeee ): I really get stress with the word SPM . It's just a simple 3 words , but I don't know why it's just so scary . HAHA . Now it's just left about 6 months to go , but then actually it's only 4 months to go , WHOA . Not enough time mannnnn . Sometimes I really feel like crying with the stress I have , but I just think that ; there's nothing to cry about -.- Just try your best to do it (: && the subjects that I worried now is my physics . I got no any physics teacher now ! Arggggghhh, and I can't get good score for my physics ): Hurmphhh . The worst is Biology , I got tuition for Bio but then I still can't score for my Bio . I only get 38 % for the 2nd test , can u imagine thaaaaat ! How am I going to face SPM while I get such a bad score x[ Haihhh , suan le ba . Don't say bout test or studies anymore . Make me stress saja -.- Sendiri type sendiri stress , memang pandai * And so , bye !

BY CML♥미령

야야야

TODAY is another hot day again ! Superio hot doh ! Serious beh tahan -.-

At class , everyone blame me when the weather is too hot , haha :D Know why ? Cuz' got one day my friends told me that they feel very hot , so I told them, ' Of cuz' hot lahh , imma hot girl ma x) ' That is what I told them and they burst into laugh . I pun stunned -.- Very funny ke ? I thought they will just roll their eyes or what but they kept laughing & HAHAHA :D One more thing that is very funny about our class is when I talk to Kelvin , haha :D I always call him uncle , ah pek or anything la as long as it's old , buahahaha ! I always ejek him got many wrinkles and anti-aging all that . And he pulakkkkk always say bout my hair . Grrrrr && LZY's stupiddddd song . That memang cukup stupid . Xin tai ruan konon , xin tai ruan dao tou fa diao dao wan -.- BOOOOO HIM ! Muaha .

After school , I went for tuition with my friends . And then we planned to eat pan mee , wuhuuuu ! Long time didn't eat pan mee already ); At first I wanted to eat roti d , & then can't tahan , went to eat pan mee with them . And then saw py and daniel , OHOOOO :D We took lunch together and 2.30 reached .
I start my class with english . Oho , I love the English lesson , hahahaah , the teacher is just too funny (: But hor sek this week can't same class with Tcs , hoho . Then I took Maths , seriously say la . I don't know what teacher teach about -.- I like dong gu sitting at there , copying .althought the chapter is really easy . Arghh ;[ I need to work hard more , haha (: Later then I went for Chemistry . Wuhuuuuuu , Chem again ♥ Ngeeeek . I love chemist is becuz' of this teacher only . Haha , if other teacher , sorry la :D hoho , so straight ((x 6.20 reached , went back with tcs . Haih , he memang very bising d la . Maybe people yang sau nga memang like to talk gua ? Haha , tcs ! Nampak ini tak ? buahaha , sau nga zai !

Tomorrow will be our class photo session ! AHA ! I wanna take take take , muaha . I missed 2 photo session lorgh , one is SPBT and the other is Ping Pong . Aihhh , tak apa la . Maybe mou yun fan gua ? ngeeeeks .
Tomorrow will be a better day ! Right , 혁재 ? :E

BY CML ♥ 미령

Lab Challenge !

Today was a supeeeeeer HOT DAY !
It's not any cool wednesday , aha !

Just now after school I went for the Explorace , with Janice Ch'ng . Surprise that Julian Mah was joining too , haha ;D For sure I will win lah . Ngeeeek . Talk about the explorace , It's actually a simple game . Not very challenging but everything is about science (: I like the coins one , and also the pins . It was so hard to make the pins float in the water ! Some of the groups manage to make it float but mine just cannot ! Grrrrrrrr . 1st station & 2nd station is the best one , I manage to catch the plasticine balls , but not all la , teeeeeheee =x
After the game , we help teacher to clean up all the stuff .
I went back alone by bus . Watching cartoon in the bus :D Nice cartoon , but it's darn stupid one (: I want CHIBIIIII ! I missed watching her cartoon so much !
So , that's all about today . I got nothing to write dohhhh . Brain stuck liao xD

BY CML (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE NG !

Gahaaaaaaa :D

02.05.2010
It's our Chloe Ng's bday !
Don't know what to say here but girl , u know what I wanted to wish you right ?
Remember ;
Always be happy , be the way you are (;
Never think of imperfect or whatever other people said about you
May all your wish come true !
And , I'll be there to comfort you when you need it to
A smile , a hug , a billion love for you
Friends will not let you do stupid things alone , kay ?
YOU'RE MY HAPPY HAPPY ELMO !
I L Y B A O B E I !
❤ ❤ ❤